It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Right now, my world is as big as it will ever be. In fact, I could almost go so far as to say that I live in two worlds. One where the people and places that surround me have played an integral part in my ethical, emotional, physical, and psychological growth as a person. The other in which the mold can feed off resources to nourish and flourish. The opportunities and possibilities that come with these multiple worlds is endless. What isn’t in one is in the other. The worlds form an infinite abyss that is the definition of youth. We are unsettled. We haven’t quite found the world for us. We are moving around, trying to find ourselves, our world, and the puzzle that is missing our piece.
I feel guilty for not wholeheartedly appreciating the two worlds at my hands. I am overly ambitious, maybe even greedy. Why? Because I want to chop up the favorable aspects of both my worlds and throw them into a blender. Hold the banana.
I am frustrated by the total and complete separation between “life at home” and “life at school.” I want to pull the people and places that excite and amuse me from both worlds and simply blend them into one. Into my perfect world. Of course, I would have to take the best of my personalities from both worlds as well, because, I simply am not the exact same person in both my worlds. We are but reflections of our surroundings and when our surroundings change, our outlooks change. At least a little.
As adolescents we are constantly meeting new people for just a moment – different classes, summer jobs, new dorms, different halls, home lives, camps, school lives, the list goes on forever. Sad but true that only a select few are here to stay. And when we “grow up?” It’ll be the same job everyday. The same people for the most part. The same neighborhood. Our circle will begin to get smaller. On one hand it doesn't sound nearly as adventurous and exciting. But it will be the world that we have chosen for ourselves and it will be as close to complete as it gets (with scattered extended family, old friends, etc.)
As usual, technology comes to the rescue in blending the best of my both worlds. From instant messaging to Facebook, modern technology allows us to be constantly connected to the preferred aspects of all our worlds no matter where we are.
Don't get me wrong, though. The diversity in experiences that are a part of my life today will be greatly missed when I one day "settle down." But right now at this very minute, I'm fed up with meeting amazing people who, after a constrained time period, I will rarely, or more likely never, see again. A dash cynical. A pinch jaded. But mostly just true.
I feel guilty for not wholeheartedly appreciating the two worlds at my hands. I am overly ambitious, maybe even greedy. Why? Because I want to chop up the favorable aspects of both my worlds and throw them into a blender. Hold the banana.
I am frustrated by the total and complete separation between “life at home” and “life at school.” I want to pull the people and places that excite and amuse me from both worlds and simply blend them into one. Into my perfect world. Of course, I would have to take the best of my personalities from both worlds as well, because, I simply am not the exact same person in both my worlds. We are but reflections of our surroundings and when our surroundings change, our outlooks change. At least a little.
As adolescents we are constantly meeting new people for just a moment – different classes, summer jobs, new dorms, different halls, home lives, camps, school lives, the list goes on forever. Sad but true that only a select few are here to stay. And when we “grow up?” It’ll be the same job everyday. The same people for the most part. The same neighborhood. Our circle will begin to get smaller. On one hand it doesn't sound nearly as adventurous and exciting. But it will be the world that we have chosen for ourselves and it will be as close to complete as it gets (with scattered extended family, old friends, etc.)
As usual, technology comes to the rescue in blending the best of my both worlds. From instant messaging to Facebook, modern technology allows us to be constantly connected to the preferred aspects of all our worlds no matter where we are.
Don't get me wrong, though. The diversity in experiences that are a part of my life today will be greatly missed when I one day "settle down." But right now at this very minute, I'm fed up with meeting amazing people who, after a constrained time period, I will rarely, or more likely never, see again. A dash cynical. A pinch jaded. But mostly just true.
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